This is going to be one of my more personal posts. Because right now I just need to write something. Anything really. I'm tired, beaten, and disappointed in myself. Allright, I guess I'll need to put this in context.
I'm a music student. Okay? Tomorrow we're doing a show. Okay? Good. If anyone of you have done show (I'm certain that half of you have, since I know there's about two readers and know one of them) I'm sure you know roughly how it works. For the other half I couldn't explain it real quick. First you rehearse the material you're performing for several weeks. Then as the date draws closer there's all kinds of things you need to figure out. How the stage is going to look like, what gear to bring, how to set it all up and how to make it sound as good as possible.
That's essentially the easy part. Why? Because you can still quit. But when you're just days away (one day as a matter of fact) then there is no backing out. If you've ever committed a crime (I haven't but I imagine it's the same) you can sort of think of it as the same thing. Weeks of planning and then the date comes and you actually have to do it.
But like I said, when you've reached that point of no return then it's all hard work. Making the PA system work, making sure everyone knows exactly what to do and when (not just the music) and then to rehearse one final time. I just did that last one. Had been a good day up until then. Everything had gone smoothly. Then it all started to go sideways. Stuff stopped working, I forgot parts of songs, my voice wouldn't to what it was supposed to and everything just turns to shit. That's where I am right now. Angry. Tired. In physical pain from hurting my foot. And disappointed. Mainly disappointed. I've done this for years. I should be able to keep it together. Obviously not.
Shit.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
It's rather amusing. When I posted about Jonah Mowry, the amount of readers spiked. But now, a few days after it has all returned to the normal amount of one reader a day. I wonder if the video has already gone "out of fashion"... Maybe that was the first and only thing we'll ever hear from Jonah Mowry. Maybe it was the first and only thing alot of people will ever hear from me.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Jonah Mowry - "What's going on"
Recently a video of a young kid named Jonah Mowry has been circulating around the web. In this video Jonah is holding cards saying that he's been bullied since the second grade, and that he doesn't feel well. It is of course very sad. Although later he has posted a video where he admits that the first video isn't true.
This is of course not the important part of this story. Whether the first video is true or not is irrelevant. What matters is the fact that we see and care about a bullied kid when he posts a video of himself. Why is that? Why don't notice the ones who are being bullied close to us. In our schools, at our jobs and in general. These are the ones we should be noticing. But we don't. We show that we care on youtube, not in real life. How can this be? Have we become that lazy? Are we that far gone? Sometimes I think we need a reboot. But that couldn't happen. Man could not make that happen.
I'm not perfect. I make mistakes myself. I've probably missed plenty of bullied kids during my years in school. But we need to start thinking! Looking! Seeing! We are far gone. But it can not be too late. It mustn't. It isn't.
This is of course not the important part of this story. Whether the first video is true or not is irrelevant. What matters is the fact that we see and care about a bullied kid when he posts a video of himself. Why is that? Why don't notice the ones who are being bullied close to us. In our schools, at our jobs and in general. These are the ones we should be noticing. But we don't. We show that we care on youtube, not in real life. How can this be? Have we become that lazy? Are we that far gone? Sometimes I think we need a reboot. But that couldn't happen. Man could not make that happen.
I'm not perfect. I make mistakes myself. I've probably missed plenty of bullied kids during my years in school. But we need to start thinking! Looking! Seeing! We are far gone. But it can not be too late. It mustn't. It isn't.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Well...
Well, I didn't tell her to fuck off. Not yeat. It's not over yet. But the problem is she's not really my neighbour. She's my mothers neighbour. And I have to go home and live with my mother for about 5 weeks until I finally can be off on my own again. Something I'm really looking forward to. Education, here I.. well... I'll eventually come!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Boredom
I'm so fucking bored I'm trying to write a post but I don't have anything around to piss me off. 'Cept for our neighbour who's such a stupid bitch that she thinks she can get her cats to follow a routine. Is it ok if I tell her to fuck off?
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
What... the.... fuck?!
http://gaytostraight.org/home0.aspx
Seriously? Wha the fuck?! Do I even need to write a post about this?
I guess I don't but I will anyway.
After just ten seconds on that ******* site I got offended. Honestly. Really offended. Not because I'm a homosexual myself but because I'm a fucking human being who (supposedly) lives in 21st century. A century that I thought was the most tolerant and accepting century of all so far. If we, of course, ignore the rise of racist political parties in europe. I thought that it was supposedly okay to be gay. But apparantly - no. Some asshole is actually making money from converting homosexuals to heterosexuals. Why, why, why would anyone want to do that? Why would you want to change who you are?
Allright I guess there are some answers to that question. Number one is of course religion. Number two could be pressure from the society. I haven't thought of number three yet, but I'm sure it'll come to me soon enough.
Let us start with religion. Now as I probably have stated before I have no problem with religion. At least not with the basis of most religions. Most of them just state that you should be kind to one another. But what I do have a problem with is things like this. When they ban things like homosexuality and other kinds of "minor little differences" (that in my book are normal). What they are doing is a serious infringement on our rights as human beings. And what happens is that people who, in this case, feel they are attracted to the same sex feel bad about themselves. Very bad. So incredibly fucking bad that they would hire that asshole to change them back. A solution that they probably know deep inside won't work and that will only make them feel worse about themselves. This I have a problem with. This pisses me off to no end.
And on to society then. Society has all these established norms that we "must follow". Some are better than others (like getting an education, getting a job and paying taxes. Things that are positive for them as people and members of the society and for society itself), but even today the 29th of june 2011 it seems that being gay is wrong. Alot of people frown on homosexuality. Why? What are you so scared of? This kind of close-mindedness isn't just bad for the people who are homosexuals. No, it's bad for all of us. Frowning on homosexuality shows close-mindedness which is very related to conservatism. Conservatism inhibits social, economical and technological growth. If things should always "stay the same" society would fall. And it would probably fall quickly. Unfortunatly there is always going to be close-minded people and conservative people. That's the harsh truth of today. And it's very, very sad.
Close-mindedness is the cancer of our modern society and will, if allowed to grow, kill us all!
Just to be clear I don't think we take drastic measures against close-minded people (such as killing, torture, rape etc. etc.). All I want is for people to think. Really think about things. If we're lucky this will inspire debate. Debate is good! The exchange of oppinions. That, my friends is the fuel for growth.
Over and out.
Seriously? Wha the fuck?! Do I even need to write a post about this?
I guess I don't but I will anyway.
After just ten seconds on that ******* site I got offended. Honestly. Really offended. Not because I'm a homosexual myself but because I'm a fucking human being who (supposedly) lives in 21st century. A century that I thought was the most tolerant and accepting century of all so far. If we, of course, ignore the rise of racist political parties in europe. I thought that it was supposedly okay to be gay. But apparantly - no. Some asshole is actually making money from converting homosexuals to heterosexuals. Why, why, why would anyone want to do that? Why would you want to change who you are?
Allright I guess there are some answers to that question. Number one is of course religion. Number two could be pressure from the society. I haven't thought of number three yet, but I'm sure it'll come to me soon enough.
Let us start with religion. Now as I probably have stated before I have no problem with religion. At least not with the basis of most religions. Most of them just state that you should be kind to one another. But what I do have a problem with is things like this. When they ban things like homosexuality and other kinds of "minor little differences" (that in my book are normal). What they are doing is a serious infringement on our rights as human beings. And what happens is that people who, in this case, feel they are attracted to the same sex feel bad about themselves. Very bad. So incredibly fucking bad that they would hire that asshole to change them back. A solution that they probably know deep inside won't work and that will only make them feel worse about themselves. This I have a problem with. This pisses me off to no end.
And on to society then. Society has all these established norms that we "must follow". Some are better than others (like getting an education, getting a job and paying taxes. Things that are positive for them as people and members of the society and for society itself), but even today the 29th of june 2011 it seems that being gay is wrong. Alot of people frown on homosexuality. Why? What are you so scared of? This kind of close-mindedness isn't just bad for the people who are homosexuals. No, it's bad for all of us. Frowning on homosexuality shows close-mindedness which is very related to conservatism. Conservatism inhibits social, economical and technological growth. If things should always "stay the same" society would fall. And it would probably fall quickly. Unfortunatly there is always going to be close-minded people and conservative people. That's the harsh truth of today. And it's very, very sad.
Close-mindedness is the cancer of our modern society and will, if allowed to grow, kill us all!
Just to be clear I don't think we take drastic measures against close-minded people (such as killing, torture, rape etc. etc.). All I want is for people to think. Really think about things. If we're lucky this will inspire debate. Debate is good! The exchange of oppinions. That, my friends is the fuel for growth.
Over and out.
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